The Carnival had our usual crowd hits of Allison Orthner's Photo booth, and the loonie make and take bar, so many amazing vendors and added new hits this year of a Cup cake buffet and team teaching classes like the smash hit of the Technique Taster class that I taught with Jackie, Cathie , Susan, and Allison. Did I mention that I had a blast!!
In Calgary it was so fun to walk around the crop space and feel like I belonged to such a great big huge group of friends that I have come to know and love. It was amazing to see such fellowship and sense of community! In Edmonton, I am slowly recognising faces, yet this group of women made me feel so at home and included.
There is something to say about when you share a passion with someone. You can meet them for the first time and have a deep connection because of this shared passion. This is why I love this industry.
Yet in the middle of all this huge success the universe felt it was time to teach me a little lesson. I don't know if I was being too big for my britches or I was just trying too hard to impress..but I definitely had a huge flop!! I spend a lot of time trying to come up with new things to teach and trying to make sure I stuff my classes with techniques, but I definitely over did it with my "Celebrate your Inner Artist Class". You know the moment right before everything goes wrong and you feel like a dear trapped in the headlights. Boy did I learn that feeling this weekend....As we were working on our project there was a moment when I realised this just wasn't do-able in the time frame we had. It was like watching a disaster happen in slow motion. Even after Calgary, I tried adjusting things for Edmonton, it still went south. I just wanted to beat myself up and cry. I try so hard, and I feel like I failed everyone! I just was not my usual bubbly self...the class was just too much for the time frame. I am still feeling guilty and struggling with this today. I know sometimes we have to fail to learn better....and I believe in forgiving ourselves when we mess up. I would never intentional design a crappy class. I guess it goes back to feeling awful knowing somebody doesn't like me. That deep down need to be liked always kicks us in the touche when we are down. So... here I am in blogger land confessing my failure to you in hopes it will help me forgive myself and move on. I know I have learned to keep it simple, don't try so hard.....and move on to focus on all the successes I did have this weekend.
I did tell you I had two amazing weekends, right?